What is a thought that can change your life?

You are AB-SO-LUTE-LY right! CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS; CHANGE YOUR LIFE!

Here is your NEW thought!
I AM A GOOD PERSON. I LOVE MYSELF. I DESERVE LOVE FROM A GOOD PERSON. I WILL FIND THIS PERSON!

Hi Coral 🙂

A thought that really helped me just now is to have no thought. Like you who grew up in a dysfunctional toxic and chaotic household, I ruminated on my past for the whole 2023 year up until now, sadly. I spent all this time thinking about why my parents have to be toxic? Why do they have to sabotage their own child’s future? Why am I such a failure and an undeserving nobody now? Is there no hope for me? All these thoughts did nothing to help me.

I grew more depressed and bitter. Thinking about how I wasted my whole 2023 year by being stuck on my past, when I could have used that time to get my career started. I can only grow older and less desirable to the opposite sex. Life gets tougher while I’m getting daily brain fogs from thinking too much about the past that can’t be changed and how miserable I am.

My whole morning started off with a crippling brain fog, probably from reading and watching materials on narcissistic abuse last night (things like how being abused can damage your brain and development). Today, I couldn’t focus on reading when my head felt so heavy and aching. That’s when I had a thought that maybe I can turn off that thinking switch in my head, to let go and clear my head. Maybe I can focus on what needs to be done instead. You know what? Surprisingly, it actually worked.

The fogginess and headaches seem to have mostly dispersed within minutes as I’m writing this. I feel like I can get back to studying, so I can finally land a job in my field this year and move on with my life. My past isn’t the place where I want to be, so in this moment I chose not to let it affect me.

I think letting go of our pasts is the key to healing. Did the abuses and traumas happen? Yeah, no doubt, they did and they affected people like us greatly. There’s no denying that we suffered because of these horrible people in our lives that we thought were supposed to love us. However, I don’t think it should dictate the rest of your life to be a people pleaser. It’d be a waste of who you really could be.

You can let your past go, along with all that people pleasing trait that you learned over the years. Just let it all go, and set new goals for what you want in your future. You can’t go through life pleasing people all the time because it will be at your own expense. Put your own life and goals first. You aren’t necessarily a people pleaser anymore unless you still choose to please people. You can choose to live for yourself instead. It’s really up to you.

For myself, I want to accept that life hasn’t been kind to me and move on from that. I want to write down everything bad that ruined me on a piece of paper and burn it. I don’t want to spend time or energy on something that can’t be changed. I don’t want to be crippled by brain fogs, headaches, depression or anger anymore. I feel it’s best for us let go of everything and start our lives over. Despite our poor upbringings, we shouldn’t allow our futures to be wasted. Clear our heads and do what needs to be done, like a factory reset for smart phones.

Sorry for the long essay. It’s just that I’m just so passionate with this topic about traumas and abuses. I wholeheartedly believe people like us can do better for ourselves if we work on it. Might not overcome it in days, weeks, or even years, but any healing is better than no healing.

That I am a child of God and because of that nobody has the right to abuse me.

I find for me it's other people's thoughts that have changed my life ,you are a perfect example. Maybe i post about my past or other issue and you respond with compassion and kindness .That is like cool water on a burn ,your thought of me when the world is throwing so many other things at us ,you had a thought for me . You do this because that's who you are and that makes you a very valuable part of this world .If we keep that in mind we can begin to see that not only are we good enough we are better than many of those around us .

You were conditioned to behave in this manner bc subconsciously you feel as if that was the only way to feel acceptance in your chaotic abusive household.

Unfortunately, this transgressed into your adulthood because it's all you know. We associate familiarity with safety. Remove yourself from this conditioning and mindset.

This is why I have a cleaning obsession because it was the only time anyone was nice to me growing up.

I remember cowering in the corner of my bedroom at 9yrs old praying i was going to live to see the morning and thinking there must be more to this life for me than this, this cant be it! I knew then whatver happened i would make sure i was happy for me, not reliant on anybody else.

I remember likewise when I was a child we had a boat trip with my parents outside our island and I suddenly realised the vastness of the cosmos for the very first time . This perspective is life changing, gaining perspective..

"If you want to get what you've never got, you gotta do what you've never done".
Just because I'm different doesn't mean something is wrong with me.

I am so sorry to read that was your childhood...so glad that you survived it and managed to turn your life around. I am not sure what thoughts I had that changed my life around, I think the main one was to stay out of trouble and stop others from falling into bad ways.

Value yourself because you are also a human.