Its not that I am scared to sleep.

Its not that I am scared to sleep, im scared of the nightmares that have been waking me up in a cold sweat the past two nights. I'm scared of the panic attack that comes from waking up from the nightmares. Part of me doesn't want to sleep. My ex is here which is probably making my anxiety worse. I just want a night of no dreams, im not even asking for good dreams, no dreams would be okay. Im so fucking tired.