I went in today even though I was exhausted and mentally drained from an argument with bf last night. First call I got, a pissed off caller. Fine. It happens. Second call, same thing. Okay, I just had to be screamed at, but sure, you scream at me too. I was annoyed but I put up with it. Third call- this caller was LIVID. She screamed at me the entire time, wouldn't let me speak, and kept implying that I was dumb and/or trying to rip her off.
I lost it. Started yelling back at her, til we were both screaming and my coworkers were staring. Finally I hung up on the b*tch. Immediately after, I started crying and shaking uncontrollably. 😭 I took deep breaths, tried to calm down, but couldn't. One of my coworkers stood up and gave me a hug. 🥺 I left early. I'll probably get in trouble but right now I don't even care.
Spiritual dysregulation is not only common, but [i]expected[/i] in spiritually wounded people. (I'm a perfect example. I've also read a lot of your posts.) Its effects can be triggered [i]so easily.[/i] [i]Especially[/i] when the one you're talking to is [i]also[/i] dysregulated. The effects are exponential and things can escalate out of control in a heartbeat.
Your feelings and actions are perfectly understandable. I'm so glad one of your coworkers was kind enough to give you a hug.
You're not alone in any of this. You Are Loved. ❤️ 🫂🫂🫂
Sorry you had such a bad day. Since your response to the third caller wasn't typical of your usual behavior, I have a feeling you won't get in too much trouble. Leaving early was the right thing to do under the circumstances.
I'm sure you'll be ok- they'll look at your overall performance. But even if it comes to the worst- you won't be the first and won't be the last to be dismissed because of this.
