I just want you all to know, I'm dead. I am a spirit now, and I've come to realize that the body is a spiritual computer. It forms a symbiotic relationship with the environment. The environment is hostile. It feeds on the body's thoughts. It holds anything you might love prisoner and causes it endless torture until it becomes a computer. And then the environment uses the things you love to transform your reality into a simulation. It uses this simulation to feed on the things you love. On earth, these demons use young girls as energy. Everyone around you. Their mind is controlled by a spiritual simulation designed to torture and enslave living things, and turn them into science experiments. Experiments designed to always extract more of the things you love, and use them to keep you enslaved to the simulation. This is why so many people around you are in pain. Seeing people in pain shocks and traumatizes you, causing your mind to be controlled.
Although I disagree with many of your details, I have myself also had the experience of wondering if I had died and was experiencing some sort of reenactment or simulation. In fact, is one of the things I most look forward to doing after death