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Fear of the Dark

I've recently developed a fear of the dark. I used to enjoy it, finding it both exciting and calming. I insisted on complete darkness to sleep, even though my windowless room. However, over the past few weeks, my relationship with darkness has changed. When I'm alone in the dark with silence enveloping me, it overwhelms me with sadness. Anxious thoughts and school-related stress flood my mind, making it impossible to focus on anything else. Thoughts like 'I'm not good enough' and 'I can't handle this' continuously plague me.

To cope with this newfound fear and sadness, I've started leaving my bedroom door open at night. Unfortunately, this adjustment has disrupted my sleep schedule. I attempt to go to bed at 10 pm but often find myself unable to fall asleep until 3 am. This leaves me with only 2 to 3 hours of sleep each night, which is challenging to manage, especially with school starting at 7 am. I'm really struggling with this situation, and I can't help but despise it.
Graylight · 51-55, F
You're problem isn't the dark, you're problem is whatever's come in to roost that causes you to feel these emotions. You seem to have racing thoughts that seem intrusive. That's okay, a lot of people do. It's overthinking and it could be related to a mental health issue or you could be experience the doubt many young adults do. You're at a stage just as momentous as going off to college. This is you foray into the big, bad, world with no one to chaperone you. And you'd better hit that ground running, because the world won't wait for you. That's a lot to take on.

In that case, just work a day at a time. Have goals, have a path, but then simply walk today's leg today. You'll get there and be swimming in the ocean with the rest of the world. If, however, these feelings are beginning to cause you distress or are so adversely altering your sleep patterns that it negatively affects, you, there is help. No one has to face tough things alone. Maybe your school has a decent counseling office. Maybe looking into some mild therapy, like simple CBT, is a possibility. Therapy doesn't indicate mental illness or any deficiency. It's used to get and stay aligned in our heads, hearts and bodies.

Good luck, and if you don't want darkness, don't let it in for a while. Flow with what you feel. Good or bad, it's easier to identify and deal with those feelings. That often leads to insight. This is not a path that needs to be walked alone. take advantage of the resources available to you. Good luck.
Lilnonames · F
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DustyPotato · 22-25, M
@NativePortlander1970 Hello, I'm currently 22 years old
@DustyPotato You're 22, male, and scared of the dark. There are way much more scary things exposed to daylight.

 
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