50yr old in Pasadena area looking to nurse and/or breast worship

I am new to this and i am realizing i would love to nurse. Want to be discrete ... nursed my wife a few times in the middle of night to help her relieve her fullness. When i ask her i would like to keep doing it she made it feel it was wrong for adults. I left it alone but years later i found out about ABF and ANR and im curious. Not looking for sex only to feed or to suckle. PM me if you are wiling