Feeling StrongI am so flippin tired now. It's 2:20am. Just had an amazing night and I'm still glowing. I finally feel like I am moving closer to being my authentic self, and to have shown that to people today, and to have felt the connection that I felt... it's...See More »
Another Beautiful Day [I Am Grateful]Today has been another beautiful day. I spent the majority of the afternoon with my brother, mother, and stepdad and we played a bunch of board games. I ate too many Thanksgiving leftovers and called my Dad to check-in. I feel so heart full. I've...See More »
I am so ThankfulI am thankful for feeling happy this morning. I am thankful that after many stressors that have taken place this year, I have not let it break me, and I have continued to work on myself. I am thankful for the set-backs that have taken place and have...See More »
Setting Intention for the Day [I Am Going Through a Breakup]I am so thankful for another day without pain, both physical and mental. While going through this breakup, I've noticed that I was almost having PTSD symptoms. I looked it up online and people can actually go through PISD (Post Infidelity Stress...See More »
I am Accepting [I Am Grateful]It's a new day, and I am thankful for life. I am thankful for my compassionate spirit, and my capacity to love others. I am thankful for the people in my life that make the healing easier when I am hurt. I am thankful for the time to ponder and to...See More »
Finding Healing in Music [I Am Grateful]Music had never hit me like it's hitting me now. I suppose I should be grateful for it. All my life I have preferred silence, and I never felt that relatedness or comfort that people talk about when listening to music. This afternoon, as I listen to...See More »
I need to let it go and sleep [I Am Going Through a Breakup]It's nighttime again. This is when it tends to be the hardest for me to be at peace. My mind just keeps running with thoughts about the "why"'s, the "if"'s, and the "how dare he"'s. Lately, I've been staying up until 2am, once even 5am, just overcome...See More »
It was bad, but it wasn't all bad. [I Am Grateful]I'm actually grateful for the hard period after a breakup. For me, it gives me a moment to step back and re-evaluate the choices I was making and to decide where I want to go. I also tend to think about my ex's qualities from a more objective place...See More »
I miss the feelingMy heart hurts a little today. I don't miss him, but I miss the togetherness that I felt when I was with him. I found out that he cheated on me for about half of the relationship, so I know that what I thought was real, was only something that I...See More »
This started as an "I am grateful" post [I Am Going Through a Breakup]I am grateful for growth and change and movement. It's weird that I always tend to be more productive when I'm single than when I'm in a relationship. It's like I channel all of my energy into making the relationship work instead of leaving some for...See More »
I don't even know what to say [I Would Rather Be Alone Than Be With the Wrong Person]I'm feeling refreshed now. It's been several weeks since we've broken up. He said that he was going to come forward with everything that he'd done to "fight for me" and prove that he could be fully honest with me. At around 10pm he wrote me a wall of...See More »
Adios Amigo [I Would Rather Be Alone Than Be With the Wrong Person]So, I just posted a rant before this post for context. That's pretty much how the entire relationship went. I'm not really sure when I wrote that rant (keep in mind I don't speak to him in the same way that passage is written. I enjoy getting my...See More »
Sometime in the Past (not written today)This is unacceptable. I want you to look at the time right now. It's 10:46pm. That is when you made it up the stairs, when I asked you at 10:42pm to come up the stairs. We had just finished a conversation about you taking up my valuable time, and...See More »
I Need to Get Something Off My ChestFirst off, let me apologize for coming here only when I'm angry. My intention was to use this place to process my emotions, but also to spread positivity. If I look back at the majority of my posts, though, they tend to be about boy problems....See More »
How is everyone else doing with their relationships during this time of quarantine?Have things stayed the same? Improved?... gotten worse? How are those single people holding up too?
I Would Rather Be Alone Than Be With the Wrong PersonIt's time for me to put myself first. I've given this a good run. It's been 7 months and I'm still unhappy. I prioritized a relationship over my own feelings and tried to make something work that I wasn't even sure I wanted from the beginning. It's...See More »
I Am GratefulIt's 1:30am on a Tuesday. I'm a little bit angry right now. My boyfriend and I are going through a rough patch and we finally came to some sort of understanding today... or at least I thought we did, but after the conversation, he started bringing up...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingCurled up in your embrace. The plush blankets over my skin, Fingers tracing along the cotton of your pajama pants, My nose, Nestled sweetly under your arm. I feel at home. The warmth from your skin radiates like a nurturing beam Without you, I would...See More »
I Want To Share A Trip Down Memory LaneOur Holiday (Chapter 1) So... I've just recovered from the second concussion of my lifetime, and I didn't get it how you'd expect, but more on that later. For now, there's so much to catch you up on. So the guy that I was apprehensive about...See More »
How do you dump someone that didn't do anything wrong, they're just not right for you?He's supportive and is trying his best to make it work. I don't think he sees that I'm not what's best for him either.
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsI used to be so afraid of not being in a relationship. I used to feel like I needed someone to tell me I'm beautiful in order for it to be true, and for someone to stay with me, in order for me to know that I'm someone worth being around. I used to...See More »
I Am On a Self Improvement JourneyToday I just had my first individual supervision meeting with my new supervisor that is working with me so that I can complete my state therapy license. She was my clinical supervisor at one of my former jobs, and I recently got back in touch with...See More »
I Am Currently Reading This BookI'm back on track with my self-improvement journey. It definitely has it's dips and peaks, but currently I'm on the uphill again and reading a new book called 'The Power of Habit' by Charles Duhig. I thought it was going to be more of a self-help...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingDo you think there are some people in the world who just aren't meant to be in a relationship? Here I am, in the beginnings of a new relationship. It was not planned, not even on my radar, when it began. I wasn't planning on falling into anything,...See More »
I Wonder What My Purpose Here IsWritten 8/28/19, but I forgot to post it: I really don't know what interests me anymore. I feel like I've lost my zest for life. I even have the opportunity to get 2 years worth of schooling paid for myself, but I don't know what to pick. I used to...See More »