My group might not be back together

It’s really sad as I’ve never had an group of true friends until I started stripping , I don’t want to loose the group , I have one best friend from the group but she doesn’t do all 4 nights , two of my friends might have quit stripping and it’s upsetting me because I love them all , my other friend is back in her home country , my other friend has problems back in university and my other friend might be back soon as she was meant to be studying abroad but her visa got rejected. I really want the whole group back together. There’s no competition in the group as we all help each other out and I’ve never fitted In anywhere expect for there so I’m going to be so sad if the others don’t come back 😭 I can’t just make new friends that easily as I have to trust them first before I let them into the group , but it was the other way around , they let me into the group 😹 but anyway , I don’t want to loose them because they mean an lot to me and they chosen me first. Not many people understand what it feels like to never fit in anywhere and feel extremely happy when they finally find somewhere they fit in.