News flash…for myself.
Barely anyone cares.
Yep. That’s what I am lead to believe. At least, not my friends any family. Disregard my previous post about my mom…I have no idea what that conversation was about, because it just didn’t make sense. But my mom has always been there for me and she cares about me. Forget some of my other family members though. Ever since my grandparents died back in 2008 and 2009, the family has not been there for each other. And my friends…well, let’s just say, I barely have a social life. I don’t get calls, and I was very VERY surprised to get a text today out of the blue. I guess that says something, though I barely ever get texts…because not many people know I have a phone that texts due to the fact that I used to have an old phone without texting. And as far as social media goes, not very many people comment on my posts…I comment on posts all the time. And parties? Those don’t exist anymore, and I’m beginning to lose faith in the party I will be throwing in July for my birthday. Barely anyone ever shows up anymore to my birthdays. Of course, maybe I shouldn’t be complaining. I am getting older, and my friends have settled down with families. However, I spent my 20s in college and working fast food, all the way into my late 30s…and I missed out on living because I was so focused on getting my degree and finding a better job…so my friends moved on. Is this my punishment, to be lonely because I was trying to make a better life for myself?…and then failed to get it?…now I have no social life or people who care?
Yep. That’s what I am lead to believe. At least, not my friends any family. Disregard my previous post about my mom…I have no idea what that conversation was about, because it just didn’t make sense. But my mom has always been there for me and she cares about me. Forget some of my other family members though. Ever since my grandparents died back in 2008 and 2009, the family has not been there for each other. And my friends…well, let’s just say, I barely have a social life. I don’t get calls, and I was very VERY surprised to get a text today out of the blue. I guess that says something, though I barely ever get texts…because not many people know I have a phone that texts due to the fact that I used to have an old phone without texting. And as far as social media goes, not very many people comment on my posts…I comment on posts all the time. And parties? Those don’t exist anymore, and I’m beginning to lose faith in the party I will be throwing in July for my birthday. Barely anyone ever shows up anymore to my birthdays. Of course, maybe I shouldn’t be complaining. I am getting older, and my friends have settled down with families. However, I spent my 20s in college and working fast food, all the way into my late 30s…and I missed out on living because I was so focused on getting my degree and finding a better job…so my friends moved on. Is this my punishment, to be lonely because I was trying to make a better life for myself?…and then failed to get it?…now I have no social life or people who care?
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