I was abused as an child.

[center]Never really was accepted as a child.. I would get picked on a lot and treated differently because I was placed in a class of 4… I was already embarrassed to be an outcast that didn’t fit in but being placed in special ed made the situation worse.. I was very angry and resentful that my father was incarcerated.. I didn’t know how to deal with him missing in my life.. unfortunately my behavior was only getting worse hence I was a problem child.. but my antics were only verbal and petty never physical.. I didn’t like to be touched and I respected the rules of not touching.. I can’t remember this teachers name.. but I can remember her face like it’s embedded in the back of my brain.. she would take me to the computer room and choke us, sometimes punch and kick us.. This lady was evil.. she stole my hamster, she would purposely reward others at times for my achievements.. and i would be shunned out.. this went on from 2nd to 3rd grade.. one day I returned home with brusies and a black eye, my mother didn’t hesitate to return back up to my school and demand her questions be answered.. sadly I was too afraid to stand up for myself and let the school know.. I’m emotionally distraught as a 29 year old man who keeps destroying my relationships due to my unresolved childhood trauma.. I’m truly afraid to admit to this people I consider close to me.. I don’t know what their judgement of me would be.. I was recently dumped and the way she criticized and belittled me reminded me of when I was kid.. I felt so weak and powerless because I am.[/center]