Everyone said that it's okay.

But it's so hard to forgive myself on little mistakes. Childhood trauma comes back to fck you up years after you think you've changed. My repeated apologies even seemed to irritate my professor...and again I can't figure out whether I'm supposed to apologize for annoying him 😶 my higher brain told me it's getting redundant and I shouldn't, so I didn't. But now my lower brain feels extremely guilty for annoying him with my apologies and I feel compelled to apologize to him for apologizing so much.

Jeeezzz I'm nuts. :(