I Feel Like I Am Not Good Enough
They say that age is nothing but a number but with each passing year I keep thinking... What have I accomplished? What am I really good at? Which of my goals have I reached?
Sure, I live, I am healthy and I have a great family but still that's not something you can be good at. At least not to what I am refering too. With al those questions spinning in my head and most of them still waiting to be answered, something dawned on me... Am I mediocre?
I can sing... but I am not great
I am a cameraman... but I am not great at it
I am a video-editor... but I am not great at it
I am a photographer... but not a great one
ect.
ect.
I am so many things when it comes to creativity but I don't stand out in any of those, at least in my opinion. I think lots of people come to a point in their life where they evaluate and think... Am I there where I want to be?
I can say for sure that I am not there yet but I made a desicion this year that I will make a change to that. Instead of just thinking about it and feel sorry for myself I desided to put some things in action.
1. F*** what anyone said or thinks about me
2. Get a paid job where I can use my creative skills
3. Get my name out there
4. Expand my film and photo portfolio
5. Travel the world
6. Find love
7. Don't let anyone stand in my way to achieve this
But ofcourse once taken one step forward bad things happen which made me take two steps back again but this time I pressed "the save button" before bad things happen so I brushed myself off and I got back up and I will continue where I left off.
Sure, I live, I am healthy and I have a great family but still that's not something you can be good at. At least not to what I am refering too. With al those questions spinning in my head and most of them still waiting to be answered, something dawned on me... Am I mediocre?
I can sing... but I am not great
I am a cameraman... but I am not great at it
I am a video-editor... but I am not great at it
I am a photographer... but not a great one
ect.
ect.
I am so many things when it comes to creativity but I don't stand out in any of those, at least in my opinion. I think lots of people come to a point in their life where they evaluate and think... Am I there where I want to be?
I can say for sure that I am not there yet but I made a desicion this year that I will make a change to that. Instead of just thinking about it and feel sorry for myself I desided to put some things in action.
1. F*** what anyone said or thinks about me
2. Get a paid job where I can use my creative skills
3. Get my name out there
4. Expand my film and photo portfolio
5. Travel the world
6. Find love
7. Don't let anyone stand in my way to achieve this
But ofcourse once taken one step forward bad things happen which made me take two steps back again but this time I pressed "the save button" before bad things happen so I brushed myself off and I got back up and I will continue where I left off.
36-40, M