I didn't lie. I said I felt like if I killed myself no one would care. I didn't say I was thinking about killing myself. There's a difference. On the suicidal spectrum, 0 being no thoughts or feelings at all and 10 being the gun is at the head, this feeling is about a 6; maybe a 5.5.
I'm not thinking about killing myself, just wanted to get a nagging feeling off my chest. I'll probably feel better tomorrow after I get some costuming or writing done.
But we both know that that's not true.... Time itself would stop for you if it could... But it cannot. There really is nothing more beautiful than being alive. If there is really nothing holding you here, then maybe it's your time. But it's not your time. And you know it.