I Have a Question
how do i deal with my birthday when its such a drag all the time? like people in my family that will only call me cause of a date on the calendar, others wont call at all. im tired of the yearly phone calls, its like theyre only calling cause they'll feel guilty if they dont, some wont call at all, and i never get cards except from my twin sister, my brothers never send a card, some people in my family will call my twin but wont call me. or some will email instead of calling. but they'll call my sister cause she dont have email or facebook, my aunt just started getting facebook but i was disappointed she sent me a message instead of calling, theyre in uruguay where i was born. my half sister calls my twin all the time but hasnt called me in 3 yrs , not even on birthdays.
also, i dont have friends to hang with either and it makes it worse on birthdays, i do have one but she dont live close to me , maybe 45 minutes away, and i was disappointed when she offered to pay me back cab fare if i wanted to go out on my own to see a movie or whatever, i dont want to go alone, its my birthday, i want people to make me feel wanted and not to just go off by myself, last yr i took off to get away from those yearly calls only to get them the next day, this yr being a sunday buses dont run and places arent open so that ruins the fun.
i go to church but people never ask me over for dinner or out anywheres, i know they ask each other but i have no idea why they dont ask me, they wont even sit with me and yes i do shower so thats not it. Im tired of my birthday being a bummer every single yr. how can i hint to people that i dont want to spend it alone, my neighbors always knock on each others doors but not mine, and they know its my birthday cause its on the calendar downstairs. they will know that in church for the same reason, and dont say go to another church, been there and done that. im thinking of staying home tomorrow cause i dont want to deal with all the disappointment, they might give me a card of whatever but noone will ask me to do nothing with them, any suggestions? i cant even see my sister cause im out of work and she lives somewhere else, thought of moving to where she is, so how can i have fun tomorrow when my birthday is always a drag,
also, i dont have friends to hang with either and it makes it worse on birthdays, i do have one but she dont live close to me , maybe 45 minutes away, and i was disappointed when she offered to pay me back cab fare if i wanted to go out on my own to see a movie or whatever, i dont want to go alone, its my birthday, i want people to make me feel wanted and not to just go off by myself, last yr i took off to get away from those yearly calls only to get them the next day, this yr being a sunday buses dont run and places arent open so that ruins the fun.
i go to church but people never ask me over for dinner or out anywheres, i know they ask each other but i have no idea why they dont ask me, they wont even sit with me and yes i do shower so thats not it. Im tired of my birthday being a bummer every single yr. how can i hint to people that i dont want to spend it alone, my neighbors always knock on each others doors but not mine, and they know its my birthday cause its on the calendar downstairs. they will know that in church for the same reason, and dont say go to another church, been there and done that. im thinking of staying home tomorrow cause i dont want to deal with all the disappointment, they might give me a card of whatever but noone will ask me to do nothing with them, any suggestions? i cant even see my sister cause im out of work and she lives somewhere else, thought of moving to where she is, so how can i have fun tomorrow when my birthday is always a drag,
61-69, F
