I Accept Responsibility For My Own Actions

I don't blame others for the way I am. They may have had a part in shaping how I react but it's me who chooses to either overcome it or blame another. I could blame my mum for me not having friends or no childhood. A six year old calling ambulances and looking after a four year old sister. I could have, but I don't.
I didn't have one, but I matured quickly enough to understand things better.
I could blame her death for my mental health decline, I could blame her partner for it too.
Yeah I have nightmares but I'm seeing a counsellor.
I was abused by my ex I've got permanent damage. I could sit around and claim disability money for the rest of my life but I chose to go doctors to help me get passed it so I can eventually work.

I don't blame people. I blamed my mums partner for so many years and when he finally died it never brought comfort. I still felt empty. It was only when I was able to grow up and stop hating him that I felt better. It's my past and it doesn't shape my future. Nobody is responsible for what you do right now. Nobody is holding a gun to your head.

I've got mental health issues, brain damage and so many other things. And I'm fixing them. I'm not going to be a victim.

skyxmint

THEY SAY THE FIRST STEP TO HEAL IS ACCEPTANCE. ACCEPTANCE OF YOUR MISTAKES, ACCEPTANCE OF SOME SHITTY THINGS THAT YOU CANNOT CONTROL ANYMORE. IT'S DIFFICULT FOR ME TO ACCEPT AND FORGIVE PEOPLE'S MISTAKES, BECAUSE I STILL ASK THE QUESTION OF WHY MAJORITY OF PEOPLE IN MY LIFE DID SHIT TO ME AND MOST OF THE TIME I BLAME MYSELF FOR IT. THANK FOR SHARING THIS, IT MADE ME REALIZE THINGS AGAIN. I HOPE ONE DAY YOU'LL ABLE TO FIX THE DAMAGES IN YOU AND ALSO HELP OTHER PEOPLE BY SHARING YOUR STORY AND TO INSPIRE OTHERS OR EVEN GIVE OTHERS A PIECE OF FAIR THOUGHT JUST LIKE THIS ONE.