I Am Over You

It's been two long years since all of the drama happened, which I don't really want to talk about anymore. But what took me the longest to overcome was me loving my enemy.....Even to this day whenever I think of him, I get madder than a hornet, and sing bitter sweet songs of hatread, then I collect myself and I'm filled with hope that it will go better the next time I see him, if only I could speak to him...And yes I still care...Why such a toxic mix? I know that he isn't the one for me, and that it's best to let him go, and for the most part I don't feel nothing at all and I finally do feel healed from all of his abuse, well his lewd questions and comments and yelling at me and hurting me...It wasn't the fact that he left that hurt me so, it was how he treated us that hurt me the most. So much for loving thy enemy...Did that and it hurt, but two years later I finally got over it, there are times when I still get angry and wish to bite his head off, but I must live in the pressent, he isn't hurting me now, he's just that way a lewd ass man, and I need to accept him for who he is, and ignore getting my feelings hurt.