I Have Random Thoughts Of Randomness
I come from people who had to take what they needed from a world that didn't want to give them shit.
My people managed to make it out, and they raised us to turn away from that lifestyle. My siblings didn't have a problem with that, but for some reason I ended up with some of the practices and habits that come from the lifestyle my people managed to get out of. I was on the cusp of it for a minute, about to fall in, but then I came back.
I don't regret that, I know it was the right thing to do and I still do. But sometimes I just think I still am attracted to the simplicity of it. I'm a man who appreciates clarity and simplicity. I think there's great beauty in the straightforward. In that lifestyle, you either get what you need or you die. There's only two possible outcomes. Complete and utter success, or the ultimate failure.
In this lifestyle, there are so many variables and paths. So many different kinds of success and so many levels of failure. I know this one is where I need to be at. Make no mistake, I know I know I know that I know that I know that.
But when you're struggling at something, the mind can't help but wonder how'd you fair doing something else.
My people managed to make it out, and they raised us to turn away from that lifestyle. My siblings didn't have a problem with that, but for some reason I ended up with some of the practices and habits that come from the lifestyle my people managed to get out of. I was on the cusp of it for a minute, about to fall in, but then I came back.
I don't regret that, I know it was the right thing to do and I still do. But sometimes I just think I still am attracted to the simplicity of it. I'm a man who appreciates clarity and simplicity. I think there's great beauty in the straightforward. In that lifestyle, you either get what you need or you die. There's only two possible outcomes. Complete and utter success, or the ultimate failure.
In this lifestyle, there are so many variables and paths. So many different kinds of success and so many levels of failure. I know this one is where I need to be at. Make no mistake, I know I know I know that I know that I know that.
But when you're struggling at something, the mind can't help but wonder how'd you fair doing something else.
