I Have Random Thoughts
Jump In
The relationship in my life began when I just jumped in. It continued for decades until life took a twist and then a turn. Mistakes were made and paths were chosen.
Today I find myself wondering what to do. My personality tells me that the water will be fine, leave your phone and wallet, take off your boots and just jump in.
The world of today is not nearly as simple as the one from decades ago. I've learned that you can get to know people with no idea of what they look like, where they live, or what kind of car they drive. Yet you can know their pain and regrets, their hopes and dreams, and many of their innermost secrets.
I've learned that some prey on the unsuspecting, toying with emotions and love. For what reason I have not divined, but the hurt is still there when the damage is done.
The water of love looks so inviting. My heart longs for the feel of being saturated and satisfied in its warmth. Yet I've stopped my heart from leaping as I'm not sure you'll join me.
Will we over coming months first dip our toes in to test the water in this pool? Or do we continue to explore each other through this soundless written voice? Will we wait for the moment where we will decide that we should dive in, or chose to stay dry and alone?
My gut and my heart agree that jumping in holds so much promise, but my head reminds the two, that for this to work, so must you brave the leap. My desire is to hold a loving heart, to blend passion in kisses sublime, to spend the coming years, learning, growing, loving always.
Shedding what covers and hides the real person from the world, revealing the bared soul, the warts and beauty that each carry through life. The pains of hurts received can be soothed in the waters of love, the scars healed by the gentle liquid touch of affection.
I'm not sure how long I'll wait, but my nature may someday compel me to jump. Love may await with that splash, but I know that I may find myself alone in that pool, feeling like a damn fool.
Today I'll pause as I am sure that you'll be worth the wait my heart promises. The day that two become one in the deep waters of love is a day that my mind, my heart, and my gut agree would fill me with joy and happiness.
The relationship in my life began when I just jumped in. It continued for decades until life took a twist and then a turn. Mistakes were made and paths were chosen.
Today I find myself wondering what to do. My personality tells me that the water will be fine, leave your phone and wallet, take off your boots and just jump in.
The world of today is not nearly as simple as the one from decades ago. I've learned that you can get to know people with no idea of what they look like, where they live, or what kind of car they drive. Yet you can know their pain and regrets, their hopes and dreams, and many of their innermost secrets.
I've learned that some prey on the unsuspecting, toying with emotions and love. For what reason I have not divined, but the hurt is still there when the damage is done.
The water of love looks so inviting. My heart longs for the feel of being saturated and satisfied in its warmth. Yet I've stopped my heart from leaping as I'm not sure you'll join me.
Will we over coming months first dip our toes in to test the water in this pool? Or do we continue to explore each other through this soundless written voice? Will we wait for the moment where we will decide that we should dive in, or chose to stay dry and alone?
My gut and my heart agree that jumping in holds so much promise, but my head reminds the two, that for this to work, so must you brave the leap. My desire is to hold a loving heart, to blend passion in kisses sublime, to spend the coming years, learning, growing, loving always.
Shedding what covers and hides the real person from the world, revealing the bared soul, the warts and beauty that each carry through life. The pains of hurts received can be soothed in the waters of love, the scars healed by the gentle liquid touch of affection.
I'm not sure how long I'll wait, but my nature may someday compel me to jump. Love may await with that splash, but I know that I may find myself alone in that pool, feeling like a damn fool.
Today I'll pause as I am sure that you'll be worth the wait my heart promises. The day that two become one in the deep waters of love is a day that my mind, my heart, and my gut agree would fill me with joy and happiness.
61-69, M
