I Have Something to Say

Just thinking, about the obvious points of my life. I actually don't have any person right now that i can comfortably talk to in real life. Like someone who i can call or go to talk to. I don't. And i wonder how possible it is for me to go on with this fact. It's not that there aren't people around that i can talk to, but there are certain people i can be comfortable enough to talk to and these people seem not to be in my life anymore. I wonder how you guys survive out there. I have a family but i cannot talk to them about what i go through. I just needed one girl i liked to talk to. I wish i could wipe off my been abused in the past by a boy who was a little older than me. But i have triggers or flashes that irritate me and i don't know what i can do to make these memories disappear. If there are some of you who have gone through situations of not having anybody to talk to in your environment and were able to get through, please share how you got through. I really don't know how to fix myself right now.