I Have Something to Say

It's funny how, sometimes there are situations were, you like a particular person, but that person doesn't really like you as much as you like the person. And then other people or someonelse likes you, but you don't like that person as much as the person likes you. And then even your family your supposed to be close to, your not close to them. It's funny how because of one thing you feel you need, every other thing doesn't seem important again. If I could I would be able to act as normally and happy as happy people do. But, I haven't understood how to balance the part of my life that I feel needs to be fixed. It may seem like i'm holding on to the past, but i don't think I am. If I have memories that are sometimes triggered by certain things that are irritating to me, does it mean that i'm holding on to the past? I don't think so.This is just my rant. I am sorry for my behaviour. But i cannot pretend about the person I am. This Is just me expressing my thoughts.