I Need Therapy
[big]Session 14: A sad revelation, a step backwards, and hope...[/big]
"You know, we would make better progress if you committed to coming to see me on a regular schedule."
"I know..."
"Well, what have you been up to? Any revelations?"
"Actually, yes... I have been thinking about myself in context of how I imagine others see me."
"But, you can't possibly know how others see you unless you ask them directly and they directly answer you."
"Yeah, but... well I can tell that people see some type of block between me and them."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, people are... well.. it's almost as if they are redirected away from me by some "invisible fence. Not a force, but a fence."
"I think I see where you are going with this and I don't know if that's such a good..."
"No, wait. I've really put serious thought into this. You see... it's almost like my membership... well the membership plan I am on to be here on earth is like the entry level one; it doesn't come with any of the extra amenities, like in my case, I don't get any companionship."
"You know that's not true... first of all..."
"No wait... let me finish... I mean it just seems to me everyone has different levels of access. Some have friends just with a smile. Others have talents that get them fame. Some are happy no matter what. Then... well... then there is me."
"Do you think by attributing some type of membership level to every human that you are letting yourself off the hook from having to address the real reasons you feel you can't connect with others?"
"Well, maybe it seems that way, but I don't think..."
"No, really... it seems like you have taken a step backwards. Listen... I know it is hard for you to feel like you are connecting with others. And, from what you tell me, I know you are working at it - and making progress. But, by diminishing everything you have done - and accomplished - as though it was a membership level that was pre-determined before birth, you basically are saying individual effort means nothing. You have to work for what you want. It may not seem fair, but that's the way life works, you know..."
"I know... I don't need a lecture about..."
"No! You do. You do need a lecture. You have made progress, but you're not where you want to be yet. That's not abnormal. You have to keep setting goals and go after them and continue to move ahead. That's the case with everyone no matter what you think you have observed."
"Yeah but..."
"No matter how remedial you may feel it is."
"Yeah, but..."
"To be honest, I'm troubled by this revelation of yours. It's... well... it's troubling."
"I'm sorry."
"I have hope for you. I don't know if you do though... for yourself..."
"You know, we would make better progress if you committed to coming to see me on a regular schedule."
"I know..."
"Well, what have you been up to? Any revelations?"
"Actually, yes... I have been thinking about myself in context of how I imagine others see me."
"But, you can't possibly know how others see you unless you ask them directly and they directly answer you."
"Yeah, but... well I can tell that people see some type of block between me and them."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, people are... well.. it's almost as if they are redirected away from me by some "invisible fence. Not a force, but a fence."
"I think I see where you are going with this and I don't know if that's such a good..."
"No, wait. I've really put serious thought into this. You see... it's almost like my membership... well the membership plan I am on to be here on earth is like the entry level one; it doesn't come with any of the extra amenities, like in my case, I don't get any companionship."
"You know that's not true... first of all..."
"No wait... let me finish... I mean it just seems to me everyone has different levels of access. Some have friends just with a smile. Others have talents that get them fame. Some are happy no matter what. Then... well... then there is me."
"Do you think by attributing some type of membership level to every human that you are letting yourself off the hook from having to address the real reasons you feel you can't connect with others?"
"Well, maybe it seems that way, but I don't think..."
"No, really... it seems like you have taken a step backwards. Listen... I know it is hard for you to feel like you are connecting with others. And, from what you tell me, I know you are working at it - and making progress. But, by diminishing everything you have done - and accomplished - as though it was a membership level that was pre-determined before birth, you basically are saying individual effort means nothing. You have to work for what you want. It may not seem fair, but that's the way life works, you know..."
"I know... I don't need a lecture about..."
"No! You do. You do need a lecture. You have made progress, but you're not where you want to be yet. That's not abnormal. You have to keep setting goals and go after them and continue to move ahead. That's the case with everyone no matter what you think you have observed."
"Yeah but..."
"No matter how remedial you may feel it is."
"Yeah, but..."
"To be honest, I'm troubled by this revelation of yours. It's... well... it's troubling."
"I'm sorry."
"I have hope for you. I don't know if you do though... for yourself..."
