Why am I so scared of doing what I was doing when I had a seizure at one point?
It was at the end of August and I had to work with all the other flute players in my band and now I am going to have to do pretty much the same thing and I am terrified.
It's an instinctive thing. When something really traumatic happens your brain tries to avoid everything else that was going on at the same time, whether it was related or not.