Won't it be better if I really wasn't depressed chronically?

No one really does care. That means it's up to you to save yourself. People who know you can give you a helping hand, but otherwise, you need to find your own strength. No one can really understand anyone, either. We all can only see things through our own perspective, our own lives.

And we all have had different collective of experiences. The onky way i could fully understand uou is if I shared your collective of experiences. And even then, I would react differently to them. Point being--don't rely on others understanding you.

Food, sleep, maybe a bath. If you can't sleep, melatonin is a good, healthy supplement that should knock you out or at least help you manage yourself for a bit. Valarian root or kava kava can also help for relaxation. Failing those, some sedative tea could help. In fact, tea is very soothing.

Focus on something you like to do. Something that can keep your mind focused on something other than what is annoying you. You can deal with the issues when you're more stable.

Good luck.