I Need to Vent

I want to throw up so badly. I didn't even eat that much but I can't handle it. I'm the heaviest I've ever been. My dr thinks its from the medicine (which I am currently about to switch to a new one), but regardless, I am freaking out. I'm only going to eat one meal a day, even though I was advised not to... because I can't deal with this weight. ..

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Syktur · 26-30, M

I know my words aren't going to mean anything from a stranger, but please consider doing things differently. Get on the new medication and see how that works. Please don't blame this on yourself right now. Don't purge. Take it from someone who knows - I had bulimia for 6.5-7 years, and I feel the damage daily. If you want to start losing weight, do something different. Smart with small goals. It makes things easier. Go for 10 minute walks at first, just 10 minutes. If that's not enough, do 20, build up from there. Just, please take care of yourself. I know the pain. And it is devastating.

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DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

@svanthor: You're right. I guess in a way I'm trying to hurt myself. :l

Syktur · 26-30, M

@jadeddivinity: Just hang in there, and let me know if you ever need to talk to someone.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

@svanthor: Thanks, man, I appreciate it.

sighmeupforthat · 46-50, M

it probably is from the medication and whatever reason you had to be put on the medication.

when i had to take maintenance drugs to live suddenly the weight came on and i was chucking my lunch all the time.

then the dietitian said "keep a food diary" man, the information that came with that was astounding.

i didn't realize i had soo many allergies to foods... gee, my diet is limited but.. i feel shitloads better.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

That's good you're doing better. I do need to keep a food diary, that's what my therapist recommended.

goagainsttheflow · 26-30, F

That makes weight-loss slower and causes "yoyo"ing and binge-eating so it's best to just stick to healthy food and exercise.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

You're right... I just get so tempted to do it because of how quick of results I get... :l

SW-User

That isn't going to help you lose weight.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

Can I ask what the weight is if it's not too personal (if it is please ignore the question)?

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