I Will Vent Here

This isn't as much of a vent as just rambling, but idk where else to put this.

I haven't been sleeping these past few days. I'm sure it's because of the other day... I've been too wired from it.

I also feel very apathetic lately. Like nothing phases me and nothing really makes me feel much of anything. I just feel hopeless and blank. I know I need to get help...

I drank last night and forgot that I took medication beforehand. I think it caused my hallucinations to get worse because I heard the loudest voices I have ever heard. I was drunk enough where I didn't feel like freaking out about it like I normally would have.