Being in lockdown you actually get to see yourself go through the stages of being you to being lethargic to just being depressed. It's a very steep decline
i felt the same, so i decddied ot do something about it and set myself goals each day, ie: order food, clean house ( hoover, tidy books/dvd's, etc.. giving myself 10 things to do each day, im back at work now ,buton weekends i stilldo the same thing,
Imagine you are not you, but somebody who loves you. And if that does nothin', ask yourself "what would you do if you failed?" Especially, when I have failed multiple times! I found myself w/no bottom to fall to, but just living a Groundhog Day. Then witnessing my beloved go crazy because I am... That memory is what keeps me on my meds! And if you are just curious... I believe there are thrill seekers out there that do without the adverse effect to those who love you. Because you love them.