As someone who has messed up in the way I talked to you here before and now reading this, I am very sorry for how things like this have been for you. Reading this definitely gave a lot of good insight into where you are and why getting to know you matters. I don’t expect a reply or any attention at all, but I am sorry you’ve had to go through this and also sorry for how I responded in our chat. I hope you continue to improve yourself for both you and your son. That’s definitely a good goal to keep in mind. And no I’m not just saying that.

You need a man who gets turned on by giving pleasure (the same way you do)
and who has a history of long and committed relationships.

If it starts with friendship, rat[big]her than sex, it's far more likely to evolve into genuine love.

My experience as a young woman was that if a man only wanted casual sex
then he was only in it to use the woman. Wham, bam, and over. Honestly, it's not worth it.
If you like big, I'm sure a dildo could do a better job.
I've heard also that there is now a machine that can do the sucking.

You could try [i]Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous[/i].
But beware the trap of getting intimately involved with any of its members.

He treated you so badly and you don’t deserve that.

Men are taught from birth that they are the superior sex and it’s okay to treat a woman like this. To use them like trash and throw them away when they are done and move on to the next. It happens here and everywhere.

You deserve to have someone treat you like you deserve to be treated. I am glad you ended it with him because he was abusive to you.

Your fwb thing sounds a lot like a relationship gone bad. I hope you can recover well from that.

He was obviously not a friend to start with to treat you like that. I hope you do find a decent man who respects you

Women never get whatever they want from men, there's always something they give up most of the time they just arrogantly think they don't, until many years later. It's all about perspective and how well the dirty little details are hidden. Trust me, hell always comes for what it's owed.

Also, men aren't a bank with an ATM to just take what we want just like we aren't for them. I'm sure that's not how it was intended but something to consider.

Finally, take care of you. Heal you. Learn Your behavior patterns and then correct them before trying to get into ANY kind of intimate relationship.
True intimacy is in the mind, not in the body. Our body is just the vessel for our beautiful life to satisfy it's mission in. Take care of it but don't become a slave to it.

There’s a difference between having a nice cock and being a real prick. Sounds like that guy confuses the two. I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with all that. He was fortunate to be your friend but clearly didn’t appreciate that—or you.

Sorry to hear that. He was a idiot for treating you like that. There are more guys out there for you gorgeous

one great woman

Users will take what they can. You deserve better and look like you are on the way to that. Good luck!!!

I'm sorry

You. Are always seeking. Always trying. Embracing new experiences. New knowledge. Better circumstances. Deeper understanding. In short, continual improvement for you and your son. You change direction if it’s not working. You never quit. You, I trust will find good, decent, fulfilling life because you are who you are. Determined, tenacious, thoughtful, kind. Never give up sister. I and your friends here believe in you. A good talented kind caring woman and mother. This station in your life is temporary. The horizon shows promise. 🤗🤗

As a giver you have to have limits, because the takers don't have any.
When you only expect the bare minimum that's all you'll get from people, while undervaluing yourself in the process. You deserve better and should expect better.

The guy must be crazy💜

That is sad and I hope one day you find the right guy for you and your son. 🙏