was thinking about how without my mama, i am truly the last of my kind

in combination with having to move states.. i lost so many friends. the people left in my life i have a brick wall between because they are comfortable with millions of people losing their rights. my roommate believes only land owners should vote and doesnt believe hate crimes exist. another excused rape.. "well how many women was it? i mean, what was it he did anyway? did he just look up her skirt? if you wore a skirt id do that"

and i just feel sad and lonely and i dont know how to keep living every day

i keep thinking "without you i am the last of our kind" and wishing i had my mom to go to. im trying to build her a memorial in animal crossing but it's not coming out right

but then just a little bit ago her cat came to lay under my blanket and on top of my arm. surprising, as hes not a blanket guy

my little creatures are fr the only reason to keep going for ten years. maybe by then ill meet people i can be myself around

ngl though i wish he laid on my other arm