I legit hate myself so much. I wish i was never born & if i had to be born, i wish i was already dead. I dont think any amount of therapy can make this feeling go away completely. It goes away but it always ends up coming back.
I meant to go for a quick walk around the block but ended up 5 miles from the house and im sitting at a bench writing this before i make the walk back home.
I should go home before my edible kicks in. Today was a hard day. I did not handle it well, & i am still not doing well. I wonder will it get any better or if this is a feeling that i will have to get use to feeling for the rest of my life.
I've felt like this. Some days it return..best advice I follow for my self is to stay busy. Not because it helps me not feel this way but because it doesn't give me time to feel this way...trouble is though some times I am alone and not busy and the feelings flood back. Hope you can find some one to trust in helps to not feel alone.
