Update: I'm okay

... ugh... the sadness is setting in again. I still think about him daily, but that's to be expected. Feelings don't erode in just a day. I put it out there and now I'm feeling the burn and that's just a part of life sometimes. My mindset hasn't changed. I have fully accepted that we're over. Damn, I just wish things could have been a little different.

The funny thing is that my life is going a lot better since we broke up. The time and attention that I was giving him, I am now fully directing at myself and I'm in this whirlwind of productivity and inspiration (obviously partly to keep my mind off of the burn, but it's good nonetheless).

To everyone reading this, sorry to have wasted your time. I'm not even sure what the purpose of this post was other than to just get it out. I guess I felt like things would hurt a little less if I just got it on paper. I'm not sure if it helped. I still feel alone. I still miss him. I'm still pining a little, I guess. He really made me smile. It was just one of those "He's not that into you" scenarios. I liked him a bit more than he liked me.

He waited a little too long to let his feelings be known, which took me off guard when it happened. He told me he loved me... and I think it was because he cared, and he really did want to return the sentiment so he tried it on, even though it didn't really fit.

I'll be okay though. I'm always okay.