Sitting here listening to the storm. What a day.

It's nice to be still and observe. So pleasantly, naturally stimulating. My dog is under my legs, breathing heavy sleepy breaths. Tonight I give my nervous system rest and my space a cleanse. Upgrade my protection. File a rare and magical secret in my heart.

Today I realized I am surrounded and have been surrounded by very selfish people. The doting person I was is falling apart without maintenance and I need to find my own way. I will.

But for tonight, I let the sky do the weeping for me. I am on break. I am busy taking care of me. If I matter today, why not every day, a little here and there? I need to assert myself for the freedom to focus on myself. I need maintenance and I am the mechanic. I got a figure this out.

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morrgin · F

Im still figuring out who all i need to detangle from. Sometimes its hard to see who the selfish and manipulative ones are when its all you've ever known.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@morrgin exactly this. I based my life on how good I was to others and tried to be noble and never expect anything in return. I was a relentless giver. Now I'm empty and alone. I never earned love or respect, I just supplemented others delusions of self importance. I made myself small and now I'm afraid to take up space.

I gotta change.

Thank you.