You know one thing about not having a personality and not being a bright person is

That I'm so afraid of growing older and aging. I only have the way I look that makes me relatively happier than my old self who didn't know that I was pretty. It keeps me from my old self harm habits. But 2 minutes ago I saw the picture of a girl I work with who's prettier, sassier, smarter, younger and photogenic.
The reminder that there are people much much better than me in every regard makes me feel hopeless once again.