i don't want to exist

but i am relied upon... so my absence creates suffering. i pity those who suffer. so i stay.

if i didn't matter, i would've left. these feel like chains. smiling, loving chains. some more anxious, because i think they know.

i don't want to do this. i don't want to partake in this.

AS LONG AS I REMAIN CONSCIOUS I WILL CONTINUE TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT MY ABSENCE CREATES PAIN

MY WORK IS NOT DONE
MY WORK IS NOT DONE
MY WORK IS NOT DONE
MY WORK IS NOT DONE
MY WORK IS NOT DONE

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