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I wanna apologize for my earlier post.. I feel broken at times but I don't mean to sound negative

Y'know back when I was suicidal I was hanging out with one of my closest friends. Homies a real thug, rarely shows emotions. Keeps it stoic. We were in the middle of talking, a regular ol' conversation. Nothing too heavy. Then he looked at me with...

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bijouxbroussard · F

I’m so glad that he reached out and sorry that you were having a difficult time. I didn’t see the previous post but I sense that you’re dearly loved because [b]you’re[/b] there for your friends and family without judgment, when they’re down. That’s invaluable. (((hugs)))

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@bijouxbroussard he was the first person that I admitted my car accident two years ago wasn't an accident. I let a year go by & never told anyone. When I told him, I was calm as can be. But as soon as I said it, I followed it with "you know what the worst part is? That I [i]still[/i] don't wanna be here anymore" then I just broke down right in front of him. I didn't have to feel stupid for the tears because he cried with me. That same night is when I realized it was all me. I was the biggest thing holding me back. That was the night I chose to live.

But I've never thought about that, thank you. I don't think I'm even capable of judging the people I love 🤷

bijouxbroussard · F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I’m really glad that you chose to live and that he was there for you. 🤗

CactusJackManson · M

Dude, your writing is impeccable. You're obviously a very intelligent individual. The world needs people like you. Be you. Don't ever give up.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@CactusJackManson Thanks man that means a lot 🙏 I actually love writing , that's part of what attracted me to EP. I wanted to be able to write about my experiences in a place where it's appreciated.

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

Don’t apologize, especially if writing helps you work your feelings out.

I am really glad that your perspective has changed after thinking about those things 💖.

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iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Of course. I hope you continue you feel better 💖

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@iamonfire696 & I hope you have a good night 😌 but I might still run into you again throughout the night so that's not me saying goodnight yet lol

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz awww thank you 💖

MySpiritEvolves · 36-40

Life isn't easy, esp these days.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@MySpiritEvolves & that's a fact but we keeps it movin' 👌

Lostpoet · M

I'm glad you are ok too

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Lostpoet thank you bud 🙏

SW-User

It means so much to know people see and appreciate and love you. :) you must be a good person.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User it means the world to me. I wouldn't be here without that love. But thank you, I try to be 🤘

SW-User

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I'm glad you are. De nada.

NickiHijab · F

Thanks for sharing this.
Hold onto these moments and what they resonate in you💙

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@NickiHijab I will 🖤 the people around me are what keeps me pushing

Mamapolo2016 · F

I'm glad you're okay.

I love that you avoid the weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth and keep on that upward path.

All of us have our moments.

Those dark hours when you think the drastic solution makes sense, remember that people you value, value YOU.

You are therefore not worthless and taking that goodness from those you love is the worst kind of theft.

I like you!

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Mamapolo2016 🥺 aw.. thanks 🙏 I don't know how I tend to overlook even the simplest traits like those.
I guess one thing I can say I love about me is that I have a lot of love in me. I guess I need to give more of it to myself though

Mamapolo2016 · F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz This all should be a lesson to each of us.

Don't just feel the love - send it out in words, too!

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Mamapolo2016 excellent advice. A few months ago I told a good friend of mine that I love her & she said she loves me too.. then we made fun of each other for sounding corny 😂

but it actually felt nice telling a friend that I love them & hearing it said back 🙃 I've never really done that before

Lilymoon · F

You're lucky you have these wonderful people in your life. 🤗

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Lilymoon thank you I consider myself lucky as well 🤗 I wouldn't be here without them

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