My previous post. [I Have Passion, But No Motivation]

I had written a lot more in my previous post, but when I posted it the first time, a big chunk of it had been erased. I had also added in there that I paint as well. Before my father passed away, I had started painting (hadn't painted since high school) to ease some of the depression and anxiety. Not too long after, I created my own website for it, which is still private (I pay for it until I have enough stuff built up on there)...but I'm slowly losing motivation for that because I see other beginning artist works that are so much better than mine, because they do those YouTube tutorials. Mine come from my head most of the time, but I have taken some of the YouTube tutorials, especially if I'm doing a tribute painting. It's okay work, but not as good. I'm wondering if I should take down some of the stuff I've got on there and replace it with something better.