Another piece of the puzzle
Now that I have some distance from the behavior I can see how it has impacted my life. I was wondering why my sister does really well for a little bit but then sabotages herself and falls into a deep funk for a period of time. As that thought came up I remember something I discovered about my dad when I was just entering high school. He was on opioids, I didn’t know it at the time, I was just really confused by his behavior often because he would be good for a little while then the next time I saw him he was way different and standoffish and sometime cruel. He created instability in the house and as growing minds we normalized it and adopted some of his behaviors not knowing that it was unhealthy and caused by drugs.
I internalized this cycle thinking it was normal and have seen it in my life as well. I do pickup on it a lot faster then I used to though and for that I’m grateful. Maybe I’ll talk about it with my sister and see if she relates to my experience.
I internalized this cycle thinking it was normal and have seen it in my life as well. I do pickup on it a lot faster then I used to though and for that I’m grateful. Maybe I’ll talk about it with my sister and see if she relates to my experience.