Im so disappointed LMAO
Ok so- It has been like... 3 months since I didnt did something bad to myself, but I couldnt handle it today.
Like wah my skin was so soft I NEED to do it. and also saying stuff like It will not hurt! Its just this once! I convinced myself and did it, when I saw I was so desperate like i was doing so good! my day wasnt even bad, actually it was a nice day but i was stuck in those bad thoughts and god im like down atm because damn it looks so easy when other people do it and when its me its like the end of the world! I wish i could be strong enough to handle it a bit longer but i think if i wanna do it then lemme do it... i can try again later but the later doesnt seem to come!
Like wah my skin was so soft I NEED to do it. and also saying stuff like It will not hurt! Its just this once! I convinced myself and did it, when I saw I was so desperate like i was doing so good! my day wasnt even bad, actually it was a nice day but i was stuck in those bad thoughts and god im like down atm because damn it looks so easy when other people do it and when its me its like the end of the world! I wish i could be strong enough to handle it a bit longer but i think if i wanna do it then lemme do it... i can try again later but the later doesnt seem to come!
