I love my boyfriend so much

He’s the only one who truly loves me and my traumatised ass. I’m damaged goods and I’m extremely lucky to have him in my life. I’m submissive to but that was all my idea , he just went along with it , he never shouts at me or gets mad at me and he has the patience of an saint, I’m so exhausted whilst typing this as I have an iron deficiency so Im nearly falling asleep but I hope you all realise how much he means to me.He truly puts up with so much from me and we don’t even have sex because of my sexual trauma 😹 I got abused by men in my past so for years I couldn’t even talk to guys but he came along last year after I got sexually assaulted by an friend over 5 times and he gave me reasons to live and taught me how to trust again. I used to think men was gross until he came along. I truly love with him all my heart and just thinking about him makes me happy and smile. He spoils me too but I earn more money than him an lot more so I do try to look after him too. We are going to try to have sex when I see him , we aren’t trying for babies because of my trauma , we are just trying to have sex for pleasure and to see if I like it or not.