I Feel Like Such An Idiot

You to you is your most important relationship that you will ever have.
Your true love is your self-love, first have this in place, then seek love from a place of fill. People for the most ADD to us, they can't fill you, that is your job for you.

You complete you
You validate you

In long-term relationships, you will get triggered, that is old hurts that are not healed will be triggered. That is why they are hard, many fail, they push each others insecure button.

In the mean time, find ways to build you up, get into movement or hobbies that give you an sense of you. Be happy in you as you.

Love you first, then this love will have the soil it needs to grow.

but you learned, so you didn't waste time..you'll be able to recognize red flags quicker next time. Don't be so hard on yourself...you'll screw up again in life from time to time

Have you ever known someone who cared about and needed you? Has that feeling ever been in your life?

It would be nice to find someone like that, and I believe if you truly want that above all things, and seek it, you will find it.