Letters to myself (WIP)

Dear me I'm glad to say we're where we need to be.
We're doing great we've lots of friends I told you that's not how our story ends. So keep on pushing and rising above.
so from ourself lots of love.

Cause I am doing really fine
Have a big smile all the time.
I love me that much is true
despite all that I've been through.
I'm so much stronger than before
I don't feel down anymore.

Dear me is this our world or just a fantasty?
What friends the few that chose to stay the others I pushed them all away.
Our story has to end I'm stuck drowning don't pretend.
So from ourself let this end

Cause I am really not doing fine
A fake smile the perfect lie.
I hate me that much is true
Because all that I've been through.
I'm still broken like before
I don't feel like living anymore