Right now , I really hate stripping and I used to love it

No guy wants to pay me , Im struggling to make big money , they dont like the beautiful girls so its not just me whos struggling , Im struggling to pay for my lawyer fees because Ive done so shit last night and the club keeps hiring new girls every week meaning theres very little money for most of us. Its really shit and I got assulted on the stairs last night , Im in shit and Im burnt out. And I have an lot of therapy bills to pay too. I dont even want to be alive right now. My sleep is messed up even on my days off and Im in an huge mess , Im that exhausted I cant physically move and all I do is eat like an pig. And I had an aurgement with my partner two nights ago which very rarely happens. I cant get booked in for the rest of this week because thats how over crowded they have gotten. So no money for me this week. Also , I work in an very dangerous city. Last night , I couldnt even do my best on the pole It was that bad. I havent practiced pole dancing for over two weeks due to extreme exhaustion and Its made me feel really depressed. I have been doing worst than anyone else in the club. I never thought I would be this shit at stripping.