I have to take some time off work

I might book the rest of the month off , I havent decided yet , I havent been eating at work and im already visibly underweight so I need to eat , I feel burnt out and I keep overthinking everything , theres been some issues between me and my best friend and I need time to mourn over the piegon and the two rabbits , I havent been earning well lately and I keep blaming it on myself and its making me very jealous and inscure , I just want to come back as an better person and be the top earner again and be mentally and physically healthy , Im starting therapy again this month too since I had one month break from it. I also want to improve my pole dancing so I earn more money. Its better than loosing my best friend and having to quit stripping.