Gloomy memories I wish i'd forget
I do not remember that many memories from my childhood, really I hardly remember ANYTHING... but there is one memory from when I was a little child, probably five or four year old... where I woke up at night/dawn and couldn't sleep, and my mother took me to the living room, and we both sat there, and she made me milk.
I was addicted to milk asa child.. my siblings always made fun of me that when I was a child and can barely talk, I always walked around the house just saying milk .. milk.. all the time..
That memory stuck in my head for some reason, maybe because it was a peaceful one..
Recently though, when my mother got sick. She'd just wake up at night and go sit in the dark living room alone.. I really think that she did that because she felt at times that she was going to die, so she went somewhere alone.. and sometimes she just did illogical things without a reason anyway..
I'd go there and bring her back to the room, where there is light and I am there, sometimes I made her herbs which of course she never drank.. and I really can't blame her.. I made them knowing that they will do nothing to her...
But every-time that happened, I remembered that situation from childhood, and it filled me with a weird and strange feeling of how roles were reversed, and how my situation was much gloomier.
I was addicted to milk asa child.. my siblings always made fun of me that when I was a child and can barely talk, I always walked around the house just saying milk .. milk.. all the time..
That memory stuck in my head for some reason, maybe because it was a peaceful one..
Recently though, when my mother got sick. She'd just wake up at night and go sit in the dark living room alone.. I really think that she did that because she felt at times that she was going to die, so she went somewhere alone.. and sometimes she just did illogical things without a reason anyway..
I'd go there and bring her back to the room, where there is light and I am there, sometimes I made her herbs which of course she never drank.. and I really can't blame her.. I made them knowing that they will do nothing to her...
But every-time that happened, I remembered that situation from childhood, and it filled me with a weird and strange feeling of how roles were reversed, and how my situation was much gloomier.
31-35, F
