when im depressed I do this thing

where I do and try absolutely anything that will bring my happiness back. Talking to someone, buying things, getting excited about my future, doing little things that used to make me happy.

Yesterday, I cleaned my car, went to watch movies with my mom, drank and sang with my uncle. Nothing worked.

Today, I will do my hair (kinda), get pretty, clean my room, and buy an ipad screen protector.

Tomorrow, I will try to hang out with my little brother and go to the beach.

I genuinely just want to sleep and cry tho. But I think im doing a good job pretending to everyone else. No one has asked me if im okay so that’s good.

I noticed that when I do all of these things and nothing works… its not good 🙃