It's like I want a hug. But the one who gave me the best hug I got is dead. And I don't know who to ask lol.

When the time will come they will be there. But you need not to keep looking for that. Just focus on the things in your life.

Sending a virtual one anyway.
It may not be the one you want but hopefully gives you a little comfort 💗🤗

Sometimes it is difficult to find a suitable replacement-hug...😪