I Need to Feel Loved and Appreciated
Five years ago i was heart broken and it was so hard experience for me to get over, so i didn't open up for anyone again.
That until six months ago my cousin introduced me to her best friend, and she told me she thinks that we are a perfect match, so i said okay lets give it a shot, after all they are girls and they knows better, right :) ? (big mistake)
so we started talking and liked each other, and she was so beautiful,simple and honest, and i loved that about her. i let my guards down and i loved her so quick without even trying to fight it, and i was so happy specially that she loved me too.
She has some temper issues and a lot of trust issues due to past relationships and she told me about her issues early on our relationship and i told her that its okay and i be there for her and its on me to solve her trust issues but the temper issue she will have to work with me so we can end it, and i will be Patience as long as it takes.
Everything was going great and i was so happy until one week ago we had this fight and she told she don't wanna talk right now and i said okay as you wish, i didn't call her again that day, and i called the second day she didn't answer and then i called four more times in a deferent times of the day but she didn't pick up, so at the end of the day i texted her that at this point i just wanna know if you are okay?, and 20 min later she replied saying im okay and i'm sleepy, good night. i was relieved that she is okay but so angry that she ignored me that way, so i didn't, replay and i didn't call her for the next 3 days and neither did she.
yesterday i called her 4 times and she didn't answer again, so i texted her in whatsapp along msg saying that this no way to deal with a fight and there is more mature ways and if she still wants me then i love her and i will be there for her no mater what, but if she is not into the relationship anymore then she should tell me now and my calls will stop today. So she replied today and she said that she was sick and when she feels better she will talk to me and she was thinking of a lot of things, i asked her how she feels now she said better, and what about the things that you are thinking about? i asked, when we talk she said. and i said okay.
See i'm not a fool and i know that this means she will break up with me, and it hearts me so bad but i wish she broke up with me already, because it feels like someone who knows he will die in next two or three days but can't do anything but wait.
Sorry guys i know it's too long but had to get it out
That until six months ago my cousin introduced me to her best friend, and she told me she thinks that we are a perfect match, so i said okay lets give it a shot, after all they are girls and they knows better, right :) ? (big mistake)
so we started talking and liked each other, and she was so beautiful,simple and honest, and i loved that about her. i let my guards down and i loved her so quick without even trying to fight it, and i was so happy specially that she loved me too.
She has some temper issues and a lot of trust issues due to past relationships and she told me about her issues early on our relationship and i told her that its okay and i be there for her and its on me to solve her trust issues but the temper issue she will have to work with me so we can end it, and i will be Patience as long as it takes.
Everything was going great and i was so happy until one week ago we had this fight and she told she don't wanna talk right now and i said okay as you wish, i didn't call her again that day, and i called the second day she didn't answer and then i called four more times in a deferent times of the day but she didn't pick up, so at the end of the day i texted her that at this point i just wanna know if you are okay?, and 20 min later she replied saying im okay and i'm sleepy, good night. i was relieved that she is okay but so angry that she ignored me that way, so i didn't, replay and i didn't call her for the next 3 days and neither did she.
yesterday i called her 4 times and she didn't answer again, so i texted her in whatsapp along msg saying that this no way to deal with a fight and there is more mature ways and if she still wants me then i love her and i will be there for her no mater what, but if she is not into the relationship anymore then she should tell me now and my calls will stop today. So she replied today and she said that she was sick and when she feels better she will talk to me and she was thinking of a lot of things, i asked her how she feels now she said better, and what about the things that you are thinking about? i asked, when we talk she said. and i said okay.
See i'm not a fool and i know that this means she will break up with me, and it hearts me so bad but i wish she broke up with me already, because it feels like someone who knows he will die in next two or three days but can't do anything but wait.
Sorry guys i know it's too long but had to get it out
