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I don't think most are even looking for love

With time and experience with people i have realised that even if you express intensely, even if you are a committed honest and a loyal person who will never betray them, even if you give them a lot of care and love, THEY DON'T WANT THAT.

Most people are looking for convenience.
They are looking to be in their comfort zone.
They want to adjust the relationship that way
They want to mould the other person in a way that seems normal for them.
They are scared of your real self only because you feel intensely about them.
That there should be a remote control so that we just say the right things they want to hear or they are ready for.
That you can't just express how you feel
That you have to express to the extent that they feel it's normal to be accepted.
Too much love scares them
Because instead of appreciating that love they feel scared to be with you
They are scared to hurt you
They are scared to be NOT ENOUGH
But no one here was expecting perfection.
That perfection is an illusion.
That we all make mistakes
That we all hurt each other
That we have to fight for the relationship
That we have to nurture the relationship
That we have to accept people for how they are
They are not looking for love
They are looking for their clone.
I took that big step outside of my own because honestly Whats familiar by now is misery and chaos.

I mean the opening CHAPTER of my life was my sister's orphan best friend baby sitting for us but m parents since she came over here so often to get away from her Schizophrenic father of kidnapping her and having the neighboring county SWAT Raid our home such that when Elian Gonzales was in the news and kidnapped back to Cuba by the Bush admin it was genuinely TRIGGERING because it reminded me of all of it.

oh and since they were out of their jurisdiction we sued and won.


and of my family we use such colorful language to describe it all: never a dull moment as they say.

So why would I want what was comfortable and familiar whne my own home seems to be a house of pain and woe?

It's unfortunate that few seem to be aware of this all, but I choose a partner that was very very contrary to all of it.

Oh and somewhere around that time dad drove into a Pile of rocks because the sun was in his eyes and totalled the old car. I hit my seatbelt so hard I had marks from it.

and that's - just the beginning.-
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@SW-User [i]"A great relationship is about two things, appreciating the similarities and respecting the differences."[/i]
They are looking for what they are comfortable with, mostly. Anything else asks too much. It's actually quite normal, they have become scared of themselves.
@SW-User I'm sorry that happened to you. I do think often hurt people, hurt people quite often but one can't make a strict rule around that entirely, that you have to keep some love for life (the grander kind) in your own way and compassionately see why that can happen and grow. I hope I make sense.
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@SW-User I don't think you were in a position to find love, or marry. I've not been in that position. I had a family that might push with laugh, even in care, why don't you find someone to love and marry... but they would never really pressure me, even if I find it presumptious and annoying, like pressure, but I never felt pressure, I needed

Both my exes, had terrible examples of marriage, one would have gotten married, another wouldn't have. I never needed the idea, myself, so for me, and if I knew I loved them it made no difference.
Well said I agree

 
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