I once loved a boy who loved me back
There was something very dark in my life and it was my brother I longed for a lot but God took my brother away.
And there was only one boy who would take me out of that dark phase. He would know if I'm upset without even hearing me. We shared something so magical that it's hard to put in words.
This boy was Anuj and while he was my best friend, i was also madly in love with him.
I recall he had sent me a loving message but I couldn't respond to that because I didn't know how to react to so much love. I wasn't used to so much love. It overwhelmed me.
The very next day after i received that loving message, I got a call from a female friend. I was at the gym and didn't carry my phone and my mom told me your friend has been calling you repetitively.
I called her back and she told me, "Anuj passed away". I remember asking What? at least a few times because I thought it's a prank they are pulling on me. Anuj used to do that a lot. He has fooled me many times that way.
This time it wasn't a prank. I didn't delete his last message to me until years later when i changed my phone. For many years i regretted never responding back to his message.
I wrote this in his memory.
Notoriously winking at me you asked for a hug,
You smiled with your dimples visible saying it’s your luck.
We fought enough to hate each other,
We then spoke and shared enough to be friends forever.
You could sense it when I was unwell,
and you tried all your inspiring talks to take me out of that hell.
The beep of those messages woke me up late at night.
Now who will disturb me? With whom will I fight?
I never told anyone how close you were to me,
I asked my God to get my friend back; I was down on my knees.
I looked at you today and I felt you smiled.
I knew you would get up and say you were joking all this while.
I touched your feet and knew this is the last time I’m feeling you.
I captured your face and said I will never forget you.
I turned and kept asking “Won’t you ever come back?”
Won’t you ever surprise me saying it’s just your little prank?
And there was only one boy who would take me out of that dark phase. He would know if I'm upset without even hearing me. We shared something so magical that it's hard to put in words.
This boy was Anuj and while he was my best friend, i was also madly in love with him.
I recall he had sent me a loving message but I couldn't respond to that because I didn't know how to react to so much love. I wasn't used to so much love. It overwhelmed me.
The very next day after i received that loving message, I got a call from a female friend. I was at the gym and didn't carry my phone and my mom told me your friend has been calling you repetitively.
I called her back and she told me, "Anuj passed away". I remember asking What? at least a few times because I thought it's a prank they are pulling on me. Anuj used to do that a lot. He has fooled me many times that way.
This time it wasn't a prank. I didn't delete his last message to me until years later when i changed my phone. For many years i regretted never responding back to his message.
I wrote this in his memory.
Notoriously winking at me you asked for a hug,
You smiled with your dimples visible saying it’s your luck.
We fought enough to hate each other,
We then spoke and shared enough to be friends forever.
You could sense it when I was unwell,
and you tried all your inspiring talks to take me out of that hell.
The beep of those messages woke me up late at night.
Now who will disturb me? With whom will I fight?
I never told anyone how close you were to me,
I asked my God to get my friend back; I was down on my knees.
I looked at you today and I felt you smiled.
I knew you would get up and say you were joking all this while.
I touched your feet and knew this is the last time I’m feeling you.
I captured your face and said I will never forget you.
I turned and kept asking “Won’t you ever come back?”
Won’t you ever surprise me saying it’s just your little prank?
