I'm just writing...

I don't know what to write but I'm just getting depressed more and more depressed day by day.. I don't do anything whole day. Even I know it's not good for my baby but I can't help it. I don't feel sleepy at night and I feel anxious and lack of energy all day. I'm getting fat more and more fat I can't control my urges to eat I eat alot of oily foods and caffeinated drinks.. I don't eat meals properly.. I' always frustrated. I'm becoming a jealous person. I feel sad when something good happens to others. I wasn't like this . But I accept that I'm becoming an useless jealous and underconfident person.