Being 20 is hard, going to school is hard too especially when you’re unable to express how you feel to other people. It can be an incredibly isolating time, but please know it gets better, like way better! Although it’s hard to see now, you have an exciting life ahead of you. You’ll look back on how you felt at this point in time and be so thankful you chose to just keep going

Just spill it all out here, there are a lot of us and at least one of us will become a friend.

not knowing what you want to do is hard. if you arent ready to do college i would suggest picking a one year trade school and get certified in something that looks at least agreeable as to what you could do to make money. having skills will make you more employable and a trade school job will probably be better than like retail or fast food or what not. feel free to pm me if youd liek to chat about it

You know it is the state of mind. It's our goal to have a positive vision in life.

Living [i]is[/i] hard work.
Horses must graze 16 hours a day to get enough grass.
Predators must go hungry till they capture prey, and miss most of their quarries.

What kinds of work did you dream of as a kid?
What are your talents?

You're always free to vent to me. Also, please read my pinned post about "suicide isn't selfish". It will show you I understand but also empathise.
Don't do anything stupid.